Either way I'm a zebra.

After the last ballet class of my college career my beautiful hero Muriel Joyce asked me what I wanted to do with my life now that I was going to graduate. This is clearly a complex question that even back then immediately triggered feelings of nausea, anxiety and anger but I calmly replied: "Honestly. I just want to take class and choreograph all day, and then teach all night. And take naps" She proceeded to laugh in my face and replied with: "Well then, you should have been finding a really rich husband"

 Although this directly contradicts my feminist education and basically everything I believe in.......she's pretty much right. All that time I wasted journaling could have been spent finding a perfectly suitable business major, because God knows I would have never walked all the way across campus to the computer science building.

What I have learned to accept in all six months of my graduated wisdom is that if you are not struggling then you are not on your way. Nobody was given a clear path to their dreams. We all have to settle, stifle ourselves, and put up with all of the ugliness before we reach where it is we are supposed to be. I bet it was not Muriel Joyce's dream at 24 to be telling one of her hundreds of students that they should have been trying to get wifed up for the past five years......But I am sure that Muriel is right where she is meant to be.

One of the most important things I have ever taught myself is that if you want to do something then you will do it. It's simple. If you believe you are a zebra, then you are a zebra. And that's the end of that.

Art is everywhere. It follows me. It surrounds me. It lives within me. No matter where I go, especially if I don't want to be there. As long as I am true to that then I am still on my path.

The idea of art surrounding me became very evident today as I convinced the 54 year old store manager for Office Depot that he should really consider meditation and journaling to further connect with himself. This was in the middle of our interview. And I'm pretty sure he's down.

The moral of the story is I really don't mind what my next job is. Either way I'm a zebra. Plus, in seven years I will be receiving monthly royalty checks from my international best selling memoirs. Duh.

In other news. If you have not watched the beautiful Beyonce documentary then do so immediately.

Love Always,
Nat =)